Cat, 18, English-American girl living in ̶G̶̶e̶̶r̶̶m̶̶a̶̶n̶̶y̶ London, recovering from an eating disorder. Fighting depression. Here to talk ♥
Today’s very late Intake
Breakfast (*ahem* at 4pm…): a larger bowl of cinnamon & ginger bread spice oatmeal with flax, a whole small banana, a large Braeburn apple, sultanas, chopped and whole almonds, and 2 types of honey. Plus a cup of black tea to *ahem* start the day after staying up all night :P
Early evening tea: 3 shortbread rings and a chocolate chewy bar, plus a biiig cup of black tea.
Dinner part 1: some leftover potato/mince/broccoli/carrot dish that my flatmate told me to try, with lettuce.
Dinner part 2: a bowl of cinnamon vanilla oatmeal with 1/2 a banana, a small apple, strawberry jam, almond butter, sultanas and a few chopped almonds.
Girly night in baking: about 1/3 of a Ginger Green & Black’s chocolate bar (I’m talking the big 100g type), a very large amount of chocolate chip cookie dough, and like 5 cookies.
Today (or technically yesterday as it’s now 3am) was a total girly day of food shopping, being silly, watching 10 Things I Hate About You, Pride & Prejudice, painting nails, talking about relationships and baking cookies. For lack of a good plan (and money), I stayed in with one friend and we just sat around eating cookie dough and being stereotypical girls. :P I do feel a little guilty for the excessive amount of cookies/chocolate/cookie dough I had (in fact, ED would call it a binge but it’s NOT a binge, no it was not.) buuut I keep having to remind myself that I didn’t manage 3 meals cause I stayed in bed so long, so I needed it.
Feeling slightly sick from all the sugar, but surprisingly non-bloated and not all too “fat”, either.
I’m okay. I’m fine. It is not physically possible to gain even half a pound from that amount of cookie dough, and there is no need to feel bad or uncomfortable because if it. Okay. :P Good night!